Time

The thought of pain
What could a mother possibly not endure
After bringing her gift of life into this world
The thought of wanting
What could a mother possibly want
After holding her sweet child
The thought of needing
What could a mother possibly need
Except more time

Aching4Nick???..Mom
3/4/2001
In a Heartbeat

I
cried in disbelief
Brenda I'm going to have a baby
Disbelief, for I believed I was left out
My world, my life was to be complete
Why is that we thank "God" when he gives
And wonder of his existence when he takes
The extremes of both have changed me
I went from wanting to live
To wanting to die
I do know that my son was worth living for
And that I would die for him in a heartbeat
Beings that is not an option
I will fight for him
As I listen to the sounds of the courtroom
I will hear my son's heartbeat over all

I Love You Nick
Love Mom
2/26/01
A Letter From Heaven
Every Minute Of Everyday
Playing House

You be the daddy and I'll be the mommy
I think we have to kiss
No you sleep over there
When the baby wakes up it's my job
You're supposed to go to work
Dinner is an issue to be discussed
And love each other forever and always
If I had it to do over again
Just one more chance
To play house
Can I keep the baby ?

Susan
2/26/01
What Day Is This

What did you say?
Tell me your not giving bad news.
You say he's been shot?
This can't be happening
I can't believe
I can't breathe.
My poor baby, he must have been so scared.
What was your name?
Kidnapped
No,, he was 6ft. and wore a 14 shoe!
Oh Nick, I'm so sorry
I loved you so much!
You were my life.
Your not alone you see,
The day that they killed you, they killed me.
This is not happening,
This is not happening to me!

Love Mom
Tune playing is "Candle in the wind"
September 19, 1984 - August 9, 2000